Over the last couple of months, I have been working on dating and finding a real partner. In the last four years (the Post Divorce Years), I worked on the dating part. I took advantage of my new found ‘freedom’ to do all the things I didn’t do before I got married. After you get divorced, you relearn who you are and you heal, it is a process. During that process, I realized that I was a serial monogamist. I went from one long term (3+ years) to another longer term relationship and I never took the time to date. Mind you, now that I have had my dating ‘fun,’ I realize that there is a very good reason why I am that way – I am not very good at just dating and not getting attached. My issue was never the commitment part, my issue is committing to the wrong person!
So, in this most recent effort to find a partner, I really tried to focus on not just dating a hottie who lacked substance but looking for a handsome gentleman who makes me swoon. There is a huge difference between these two types of people! As you may recall, I did try the whole online dating thing – the profiles, the emails, and maybe a date or two. I hate the idea of having a profile up. This time around, I replied to a few Craigslist personal ads which turned out to be a ‘mostly’ bad idea. It was only ‘mostly’ a bad idea because I did have fun, I met some interesting people, but I didn’t find a partner. In some cases, I found train wrecks. I replied to one ad that seemed decent, he seemed decent, and we met. We went on 6 or 7 dates over a month of time. We really seemed to hit it off but he was never available on a Saturday night and I never heard from him over the weekend, at least not until he went to work Sunday night. He kept reposting his ad and had a dating profile, so he was definitely keeping his options open while also telling me that he could be serious with me. Thankfully that ended before I got too sucked in. I am certain that not only was he keeping his options open, but he was also cheating on his wife (his story about being separated was bullshit ).
I gave up on responding to ads and posted one of my own. I think of it as casting a net. As the fisherman, you get to pick and choose which fish look best and throw back the others. Yes, this is a terrible analogy but if you are like me, your friends keep telling you there are other fish in the sea – this analogy is for them because they were right! Very few women post personal ads, don’t believe me? Go take a look. The response I got from my ad was astounding! It was a real pick me up. I got some intriguing and attractive respondents, some inappropriate pictures, and of course some less than stellar prospects. The first ad netted three seemingly good catches and two possibilities. The two possibilities self-selected themselves out of the process. One of the good catches turned out to be emotionally young, and the other two got first dates but they didn’t pan out. One actually stood me up on the second date!
This is not an easy process. If you are currently dating, you know what I am talking about. All of you married or coupled people, need to be thankful for your significant other. Trust me, there are stormy seas out there, especially when you are looking for the perfect catch!
Slightly daunted by the task ahead, I reposted an ad. This time I netted five. One was a player who just wanted to show me how great he is in bed. One looked much older than he claimed to be and far too shrouded in mystery to be legitimate. One was a flake. One was just not my type. And then there was the one who got a first date, and has had many dates since. The beautiful part of posting an ad is that you meet people you would not meet otherwise. My friends and sisters would say I have a type, this guy does not fit that type. He is classically tall, dark, and handsome. He is an absolute sweetheart, the right mix of a guy’s guy and a romantic. After two weeks of chatting (yes, by phone), texting, hanging out, and going out, I can tell you that this guy is someone I want to hold on to. This could turn into something real!
I am not going to lie. After four years of singlehood, it is a scary prospect to find someone you actually want to be with. While I was dating, I went in knowing that those guys were temporary. This guy is different. This feels different. It is an amazing feeling but there is an element of fear. I am very open to seeing where this leads and I am excited to see what each new day and week brings. I am glad I kept casting that net.